i wll follow you into the dark

death cab for cutie-
beautiful.

ra ra riot,
wonderful.
could have appreciated them more
if the crowd wasn't so dead
and the guys in front of me weren't so tall.

nevertheless,
i love people
for being nice enough
to give me a dollar.


ps.
i'm going to eat salad everyday

pps.
i am going to live in seattle one day.

come thou fount to every blessing (sufjan stevens)

"O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I’m constrained to be!
Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above."

friend is a four letter word (cake)

nancy and i were just going to stay in and study tonight,

but i got one phone call at midnight

and things got crazy.

i'm just glad everyone is alright now.
(kind of)

look out young son

that recurring feeling is back

and i'm running further away
from everything that matters.

what do YOU hope for?

papercuts

rob ryan-
my new hero.

so unsatisfied (girl band)

"You hold a block of metal in your hand. And it's solid.
Yet within the metal there are molecules or atoms,
all moving by laws on their own.
Press a block of pure gold against a block of silver.
When you separate them they seem unchanged.
But a good physical chemist will show you
that where they have been in contact
invisible flecks of gold have wandered
across the barrier of structure
and buried themselves in the silver.
And atoms of silver,
somehow in the structure of the gold.

I think that when people are pressed close
they act the same way.
Part of you enters them, part of them enters you.
Long after you forget the names and the faces,
they are still a part of you.
Sometimes it's frightening to think
that every person you have ever hated,or feared,
or ran away from is part of you.
But so is every person you have ever learned from,
every friend you ever had."

--Theodore H. White

i miss tripping.

loaf meat hinder

plamodel do-it-yourself 35mm camera

by superheadz/powershovel ltd.

diggity dawg.

can't/won't?

This relationship is flat lining.
i'm not making any effort anymore
(was i ever?)

it's finally starting to hit me
that things really don't just get handed to you in life.
shit,
have i been really that spoiled all this time?

i'm so unsure of what to do over the summer
that's what happens when i try to plan things.
it's probably not going to end up the way i think it will.
God works in interesting ways.

i only blog when i don't want to do work.

photo update:
floatopia
i miss my bnfl.idk,my bffsylvea.nancypants + snakes + state streetabandoned houses, still had dirty dishes left in the sinks.
i wonder where these people went,
why they had to leave so abruptly.
what will take the place of these homes?

i miss home.
so much.
i don't know why
and i don't think the people around me
really realize how much i miss home.
i know i don't do anything when i go there,
and that there isn't a bed for me to sleep in,
i just want to be near my family.
i don't miss high school at all,
but i want to be back with my mom dad and brother.
just the four of us.
sitting at the dinner table together,
my brother and i wanting to eat as fast as we can so we can go upstairs,
my dad trying to get us to talk to him,
but only in korean.
my mom making us all hot and fresh food,
while she microwaves last night's leftovers to keep the fridge clean.

this isn't helping.

problem

i'm trying to think of the right words to express myself properly.

i've already written two drafts
but i didn't feel like the words were adequate.

so, instead of just explaining myself,
i will just simply state my problem:

i forgot about love.

Divine Romance

"The fullness of Your grace is here with me
The richness of Your beauty’s all I see
The brightness of Your glory has arrived
In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied

For You I sing I dance
Rejoice in this divine romance
Lift my heart and my hands
To show my love, to show my love

A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You
Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life
In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QF0p4I9a1nw

garbage

crashing waves
hand shaped bruises
sand filled swimsuits
free floats
free drinks
people people everywhere
warm sun
cold wind
lost towels
new towels

floatopia.

a very good weekend.

you could write a book

hm.
i don't have much to say at the moment.
life update?
spring quarter's started,
and i really like my classes.
i have one class on mondays and wednesdays at eleven (dinosaurs)
one class on fridays at nine (music discussion)
and three on tuesday and thursday spanning from eleven to seven.
(music appreciation, biopsych, and writing2)
a pretty decent schedule, i'd say.
i'm thinking of signing up for yoga on fridays at noon, too.
this schedule is perfect for a job.
i've applied to borders, blenders in the grass, and i.v. bookstore so far.
we'll see.
i started running again;
well it's only been twice,
but i think that'll be consistent..
unlike my walk with God..
i've been way behind on that
way way way behind.
it's definitely affecting my life.
bleh,
it makes me feel like a weak person.

i never really talked about my birthday.
it was whatever.
i liked getting dinner with my mom and cousin jayme though,
it was nice and quiet for a change.
i've been missing my mom more and more lately,
all those times i've taken her granted.
she may not be the most perfect person,
but surely one of the wisest i know.
i felt horrible when she found out about my piercing.
she called herself a bad mother..
and that she didn't do her job right.
thank God i didn't get a tattoo.
that would really have killed her..

well.
no class tomorrow.
woot!
i'm going to pray for sun,
so i can go to the beach finally,
and just lay there and soak up the cancer.