Friday, I'm in Love

You guys, i really like being the responsible one.
it feels good to take care of someone,
even when they don't really need to be taken care of..
well, sometimes they do.

i'm pretty sure i live on the best street ever.
Pardall is what everyone calls "IV's downtown"

next saturday,
there's going to be a carnival!
with a ferris wheel!!!

so excited.

i made cheeseburger cupcakes today
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check it.

wild young hearts

it's been a long, long time since i've last blogged here.
what to say..
summer was pretty great,
and i'm back in IV.
I'm so glad to say that i still love it here so much.
The environment, our house..
our house is great.
we live right along the border of IV and campus,
so we often just sit outside our house, watching the people walk/bike/skate/etc.
back and forth from class.
and i have a hammock!
set up right outside our house, so i can just lay back and chill.
the girls next door are our old floormates,
love them to death.
the guys upstairs are so chill, and pretty pretty i must say.

and school!
i've missed school a lot too.
i've missed learning, as much as i kind of dread waking up,
it's not so bad anymore, now that i can just walk right on campus.
i'm taking a really heavy load this quarter (twenty-one units!)
but there isn't a class i want to drop, i love them all.
okay, maybe i don't really love math that much,
but it's a necessity.

well.
there's a lot more i want to say
but i 'm getting kind of bored of typing
i'll leave with these lyrics (wild young hearts by the noisettes)
i feel like this describes life really well for me.

And while the city sleeps
I won't weep because I didn't keep
My boyfriend and the summer's is here again
And the leaves are golden
Under the grand silver birch tree

While we're thinking bout the people we meet
Dancing feet, wasters on the cover of a magazine
People you've kissed, people you lust
And the one's that you might not
Ever remember what's the use

I'm not what I was last summer
Not who I was in the spring
Tell me, tell me, tell me when will we learn
We love it and we leave it and we watch it burn
Damn these wild young hearts
Damn these wild young hearts

Now that the city's awake, my heart aches
Oh what a silly mistake it seems I've made
You left your keys under my bed
Left a thumpin in my head
I would say sorry, what's the use

Cause, I'm not what I was last September
And I don't wear the same robes in May
We know we shouldn't do it, but we do it anyway
We know we might regret it but it seemed ok
Damn this wild young heart
Damn this wild young heart
Damn this wild young heart

If now is forever then what's to prove
Cause it won't be the same next summer
And I guess I'll see you in the spring
Somebody tell me, tell me, tell me, when will I learn
I love it and I leave it and I watch it burn
Damn this wild young heart
I told you damn this wild young heart
Damn this wild young
Tell me, tell me, tell me when will I learn
Damn this wild young heart

make believe

sometimes
you just have to pretend nothing's wrong
and go about life.

grinning and bearing it.

not being mopey and so sighface,
expecting someone to ask you what's wrong
so you can moan about it some more.

it's just too much.

knock you down

i just finished my last final.
now all i need to do is finish revisions on my writing2 paper
and i'm finished for the year.

i should be in a more celebratory mood,
like most students are at this time-
updating my facebook/twitter status as something ecstatic like
YEAH SUMMER!
but i'm not.

in fact,
what i really would like to do now,
right after i turn in my paper,
is to turn my bottom bunk into a cave
and just curl up and be alone.

i really amhappy that i'm finished with my first year of college,
but there are just so many negative thoughts running through my head
haunting me
taunting me.

i just took my biopsych final
we had three hours
to answer fifty-three multiple choice questions.
how long did i take?
thirty minutes.
and i double checked my answers.
shit, man.
as soon as i got out,
i just felt so shitty.

i had a good two hours to wait for nancy to get out of her final,
to just sit outside on a bench by myself
and think about how horribly i must have done.

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pulp fiction

my finals days in FT, or Santa Catalina, officially

are drawing to an end

i have to say,

it's been such a memorable experience

dorm life.

i really will miss these days

having everyone around so close.

it's hard to imagine just less than a year ago

i had no idea who these people were

these people that i've shared such memorable times with

and my roommate

nancy pants!

who knew i'd get to share a room with such a gal

it'll be bittersweet not having her around 24/7

but she'll be living next door,

so it'll be the same, basically.

it'll be weird not having the guys so close

always just barging into our room

eating my red vines and disturbing our peace

it's been great,

and i can't wait for what next year has in store.

eleven

more days.

and then i will have completed my first year of college