just so you know

don't think i live my life without a second thought.

I'm constantly reminded of the decisions i make

and the fact that i'm not the same person i was three years ago.

There are parts of this lifestyle that the old me would look down upon.

I'm sure you look down on me too,

though that is the last thing i want.

Ultimately, these are my decisions

and i just hope that one day i'll figure myself out,

eventually getting back on the right track again

without falling off the deep end.

I'm proud of the decisions you make and the

fact that you choose your spirituality over the temporal,

and i hope that the way i've chosen to live

hasn't affected your overall opinion of me.

I love you and I've always wanted the best for you.